me again
ya know for some strange reason when it rains it friggin hurricanes-this past week had its ups and downs-ok im lying it had many downs but really i did have to help my flower friend alot with her problems and i really didnt care i mean its my job as a friend/sister but really i had alot to deal with not only the fact of things in my life but all the other outside influences. i feel as if when i go through things my close circle of friends (who are of no relation to one another)-all have sever issues to deal with. and for the most part we all get so caught up in the drama of these event. then as normal people do 2 or 3 days later it all blows over or it vanishes from memeory just to be brought up in future references. guys kill me, i mean ill never understand so what ever but kudos to my girl that is a giant men disposer. i mean more men then she uses kleenex. both being soft and dispossable. but i actually have a concious and morale. what ever- better her then me. then one is married- and that kills me- its not easy to deal with cuz u cant say "break up with him" i mean god its a marriage now. sometimes i think that i always help them because it helps me to forget my shit and lets me be who i am -the mentor mmoderator and psychiatrist friend that they all love and respect. but it seems as if i will never find a true genuine person that i can go to in my time of need. crazy huh?in recent news as i said before -i did find a "real guy" in someone even if i dont know him he really did put a smile on my face with just a few simple words that boosted my ego a little. a incredibly big thank you goes out to you doll- u know who u are! yet i will never find a clone of him ever--humm wheres my chemistry set....
the fisherman set sail tonight and i really couldnt give a rats ass.
i talked to my friend on tuesday and that was nice but also made my other best guy friend call me probably wanting to know all the conversation details which really didnt amount to much -ya know that catch up rambles of 2 friends who havent seen each other in years but it made me happy to know that hes alive and well.
i got drunk and i guess said too much shit to me roomie and that was bad. i totally woke up in my clothes and knew straight away that was a bad sign.i remebered the beginning of our convo but not the end...i should definitely stick to my wine from now on........
i also realized today out of utter bordom that fact that my movies are really publicized on the net. which scares me a little cuz they have cult followings and are now out in germany with subtitles. it amuses me that some girl actually sat in a studio and did a german me voice! kool yet krazy.
i just talked to my sis about the crap that accumulated since our last talk and for once all day i laughed about it all. it felt good to have my sides hurt with the pain of laughter-good hearty laughter-also i had wayyyy tooo much coffee today and am still wide awake--not kool.
the morale of the day is==no coffee after 6-if you need to do something do it-ned to get stuff out have a good cry, you'll eventually laugh about it all and yes there are nice guys out there in tvland. goodnight--i hope ................
posted by PlatinumStar @ 4/28/2006 12:16:00 AM
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